Wednesday Column

1994: Final Fantasy VI (How I Approached RPGs: Then vs. Now)

InfernalMage “The following is a contributor column by the Infernal Accountant Mage.”

Many keystrokes have been wasted debating the status of video games as art. Are they? Aren’t they? Does it matter? We talked about this on The Well-Red Mage some time ago, and based on the Twitter responses Well-Red received after bringing it up at all, it’s still a bit of a sore spot. Even growing up, though, I never really thought much of games outside of their mechanical qualities. I can respect that some of them look nice, that some of them sound great and that, apparently, some of them have really moving stories… but that’s not really why I play games. For me, it’s the act of playing that draws me to the hobby.

I think this is best illustrated by how young me approached new games. The days of yore weren’t like the modern era, where new games flow like water and gainful employment allows me to keep new goodies coming on a regular basis. No, back in the day money was hard to come by, online shopping was a less attractive option and a new game was a rare and valuable prize. Even renting a new game for a weekend was a treat. What’s more, young me grew up in Europe but only had access to NTSC equipment, so certain niche games were simply not going to be available – that was a bitter pill to swallow for a Japanese RPG-loving kid like myself.

The bottom line is that there was a big game-shaped hole in my soul a lot of the time and I wouldn’t be able to fill it with, well, games. The next best option turned out to be game guides. I absolutely adored video game strategy guides; they were what I’d read to sleep at night, what I’d take to school to read between classes (and sneak during class if I was feeling bold) and what fuelled my daydreams with thoughts of games I didn’t own in an age where you couldn’t just watch gameplay on YouTube. At first this meant grabbing print guides where I could, but young me was part of the first generation to grow up alongside the Internet, and this meant being able to access GameFAQs.

I’ve been a professional writer for over a decade now. I don’t mean “professional writer but actual barista,” I mean that writing has paid my bills and kept a roof over my head. I believe that GameFAQs is responsible for this, as young me consumed FAQs voraciously. Even before broadband access was readily available and Internet access was something you paid for by the hour, young me would desperately scour GameFAQs for the longest and best guides to save and read later. A treasured childhood possession is a burned CD containing an extensive library of text files saved from GameFAQs. During the sweltering Spanish summer, young me would stay up until the wee hours of the morning listening to music and reading guides.

It wasn’t about learning how to beat a game. Young me could probably have handled that, and indeed most of the games I’d read about weren’t games I owned. It was about knowing the game and, more importantly, having the material presented to you by someone who legitimately cared about it and wanted to share their passion with you. A well-written guide is a thing of beauty. It is part documentation, part review, part memoir. It is a slice of the author expressed through the lens of explaining how to master a video game; the magic of the written word is that it’s not constrained by format. I’m not the only one to see the artistry in guides; author Tim Etchells’ book The Broken World is a drama leaking into a walkthrough for a fictional game.

So I didn’t play Final Fantasy VI like most people almost certainly did – I knew the game inside and out before I touched it. I’d read guide after guide about it. I knew what was going to happen and when. I knew where to find the secrets and how to obtain them. To me, the act of playing the game was something akin to having a beloved book brought to the silver screen in glorious fashion. I’ve never been enamored with the idea of “spoilers;” if something can be spoiled just because you know what’s going to happen, then to me it wasn’t very well-presented. There is a clear and significant difference between knowing how something is done and doing it oneself.

Screenshots weren’t common in those days. I knew Sabin was a powerful martial artist with numerous special attacks, but now I got to see him fight and use those attacks for myself. I knew the Atma Weapon was a solid wall of a boss that would test the player at the halfway point of the game, but now I’d get to conquer that challenge for myself. I knew Gau was able to learn the attacks of the monsters you’d fought, but filling up his list of Rages was now up to me. I was finally able to see how my imagined view of dungeons, enemies and plot points compared with the real thing. The experience was exquisite and I’d repeat it time and time again; in particular, Star Ocean: The Second Story doesn’t appear on the big list that this column is based on, but my obsession with the game and its guides prior to finally getting the chance to play it was legendary.

This paradigm didn’t last forever. We’ll talk about SaGa Frontier in a future column; this is a game awash with mysteries, secrets and questions that remained unanswered for years, and even the official guide was patchy at best. The thought of a game so enigmatic that I simply couldn’t know everything there was to know about it was fascinating to young me. SaGa Frontier and its associated series and spin-offs are some of my favorites these days precisely because of how they refused to have their depths revealed. It was an entirely different sort of enjoyment; this tends to be how I prefer to approach games in an age where everyone talks about everything in games and there are no more mysteries.

Still, some of my most beloved gaming memories come from those titles that I’d finally, miraculously managed to play after exhaustively reading about them for days, weeks, months or even years. Deep into the night I’d sink into a guide, absorbing the endless complexities of a game I’d never played from a friend, gleaning the knowledge of a friend I’d never meet. Some people might call that a waste of a good experience. To me, though, it was amazing.


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    • Yes, it was definitely a great feeling! The way that things get built up in your head versus the way they actually end up playing out is fascinating to me, both in games and in life. It probably helps that I rarely studied the boss strategies and such, so difficult moments remained difficult – beating the Atma Weapon and reaching the second half of the game was definitely memorable, even though I knew what was coming.

      I don’t know that I was let down at any point with this game, but that’s come up with others. For instance, Kartia: The Word of Fate, a lesser-known strategy-RPG for the PlayStation, seemed amazing on paper but in action it’s a pretty half-baked game with ambitions too big for its gameplay to match. Likewise, I often read tons about arcade games under the assumption I’d never actually get to play them. They were made out to b e absolutely legendary in the guides, but when I eventually learned to use MAME and got to try them for myself, they mostly turned out to be pretty blah quarter-munchers.

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      • First time I’ve ever heard anyone name drop Kartia. I’ve been thinking of reviewing it but I’ll need to find my copy. That game was a disappointment when I thought it would be something totally other than what it seemed.


  1. Ah that Twitter response… So I’ve come to realize something and that is that a lot of people assume that asking about something means that that something matters. In other words, asking if games are art or not assumes from their perspective that the answer is significant. But I think that’s foolish. If we only asked questions about things that mattered (cosmically, personally, socially, etc.), then that eliminates quite a few realms of thought. I like to read philosophy now and then but if we could only ask about things that mattered, bye-bye philosophy, oh and some realms of science too, not to mention areas within art itself. Curiosity, I believe, is its own virtue.

    I’m also very fascinated to learn about you reading FAQs for fun. Like I mentioned to you, I never appreciated them or games through them in that way, though I enjoyed magazines in my time. I’m curious (uh oh… curious) as to whether you received any disdain from gamers for that, as if it wasn’t a valid way to appreciate games. I’m convinced games are broad enough to be enjoyed in many ways and the ways in which others appreciate them (let’s plays, walkthroughs, FAQs, tourneys, etc.) aren’t invalidated simply because I don’t enjoy them myself.


    • The sort of behavior exemplified by that comment is core to the dysfunction in the hardcore gaming set. That is how gamers have learned to approach disagreement and discussion – with hostility, if not outright nastiness. It was very telling.

      As for your question about whether I’ve faced hostility for playing games in the way I describe in this post – to be honest, I don’t often interact with self-described gamers if I can help it! I’ll talk about this a little more when we get to FF7 later in the list, but the toxicity in the community isn’t a “new” thing, we’re just seeing mainstream gaming media talking about it now because it racks up rage-clicks and is good for site metrics. When I’m interacting with other people regarding video games it’s usually in smaller groups of people that I actually like rather than the cesspool that is the greater community – see also: why I write for TWRM. With that in mind, nah, it’s never really been an issue, but that’s because I usually avoid people who would clearly make it an issue.

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